It finally hit me today. Two and a half years down, 1 semester to go.
It came as I was thinking of ways to distract myself from revising for an exam - usually baking fills this void.
But today it was different. Today I didn't need to Google chocolate chip recipes, yummy looking cheesecakes, or slices.
I graduate in around 6 months time.
This is pretty obvious to most, and while I apologise for what seems like a gloat to most people who follow me (Who are those that don't seem to be graduating this year - wait for your time and savour it!) it is more an epiphany than an opportunity to gloat.
Or, will it be?
I've been struggling my way through three years of one paper: Media Communication. The three levels of this paper are such large steps, and I have gone from writing amazing A grade essays in year one to missing out by half a mark on my first one this year. It's a wake up call for sure.
However, that's not the point of the gloat. The point is that it is an essential paper that one MUST pass in order to graduate - it's our only solely academic paper in third year which I'm stoking about. But the problem is that I'm nervous about my 2nd essay, if I indeed judge it from my first feeble essay.
That's where this blog comes in.
I thought about how I could possibly find any motivation to study for this paper's tedious exam - 3 hours to complete 3 essays.
And then it hit me.
If I don't do well in this exam, I'll be going to graduation, but not to graduate.
I will be going to the street parade, taking photos of my friends for them, rather than being in the photos with them.
I will be proud of my classmates, while not proud of myself.
And so whenever I struggle for motivation, I simply think of one image: Graduation. Not hearing my name being called out. Regret. More Media Comm study would have got me through. Disappointed. Sorry mum and dad.
And boy does that get me going.
Who knows, it could get you going, too. Do you have a Media Comm paper? One that is intensely arduous? Well, picture your goal - and picture you failing it.
That's far more gutsier than picturing you all happy receiving your degree. Why?
It's the pushing and shoving through the pessimism that will show you your character.
Do it.
Love you all.
*Shivers* Ohk, maybe I better put more effort into my exams than what I have been doing so far! Yikes, I don't know what would be worse, not graduating, or the look from my mother when I don't. *Shivers even more*
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ReplyDeleteIt's definitely not a long term aid - but from time to time when you feel particularly unmotivated, its a winner!
Your challenge is to now take your own advice!
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